my love.

i love my husband. some days i may not be the sweetest person & may not show it. and i'm trying, but i sure do love my husband.

we met when we were 13 years old. and he's always been a very big, major part of my life. he's my love. i can honestly say that i married my best friend. i remember ex-boyfriends would get mad while we were dating because i would say "brandon from magnolia is my best guy friend." it was the truth.. and it always remained that way. and i'm glad that after all the years, he chose me to be his bride.

my favorite things about brandon are his heart, talent, devotion, smile, humor and much more. he has a heart after God. and honestly, when a guy constantly strives to be more like Christ and follows him, i couldn't have done any better. i love that he holds me accountable for my walk with Christ. i fail, at times, but he's always there encouraging me. i love his talent. and his heart for worship and honoring God. he's pretty darn talented & i get jealous at times. heehee! brandon has led worship since he was younger.. and it's one of the main things that drew me to him. i played the clarinet for 6'ish years.. and i have always been drawn to musicians. i love his voice.. sexy & soothing (to me). i know when he's leading worship, he's not trying to sound sexy. heehee! i love to sing & i love music. but i can't sing. and one of my dreams has been that one day God would say "Jessica, I'm gonna give you an awesome voice." and i would say "why, thank you, God".. and then brandon & i would be the next sonny & cher. a girl can dream, right?!

i love brandon's devotion. he truly is devoted to our family. he puts us first, above all else. well, except God, of course. i know there have been times where i remind brandon of the priority list: God, family, ministry, whatever else. sometimes we get sidetracked, but he does pretty well with staying on course and keeping a good balance. i know i have always loved brandon. but when our son was born and seeing his interaction with fox, i have never loved him more. he's such a great daddy. seriously. so very, very good. so proud of him. and he does such a great job with being a husband. he treats me like a princess; he spoils me when he can. he loves on me. he'll put me into place when i get out of line. i'm spanish, have a temper at times (i blame it on my daddy), i have been spoiled all my life, i have attitudes & get into moods. and sometimes i need to be smacked around! heehee! just kidding, no smacking going around! i know sometimes i can be selfish and i love that he helps me be more selfless.

i love brandon's smile. he puts a smile on my face. i looove, love his dimples. while i was pregnant, i prayed that our baby would have dimples like him! and voila! fox has dimples! and i'm sure fox will drive girls crazy when he's older. brandon is one of the funniest people in the world. honestly. we really do have a good time together. brandon can be a prankster. he prank calls the radio stations around town...disguising his voice. he prank calls his work while he's upstairs. he pranks people from church. and we just giggle & laugh about it all. i love him.

brandon is a hard worker. he works a full time job, graphic/web designer on the side, leads worship & volunteers at the church, he's a full-time student, a daddy & a husband. he helps to cook, he cleans, he mows the yard, he gets down on the floor with fox, he has started changing more dirty diapers, he helps to get fox's meals together for school. he's my help-mate. he's busy. and he usually has a great attitude; i've only s een him mad about 3 times since we've been together. and i would love nothing more than for my husband to take a month long break from everything. because honestly, he deserves it. and i am so proud of him. i know all of his hard work will pay off. hopefully, sooner than later. and i pray that i never take all of his hard work for granted.

we don't always get along. he leaves the toilet seat up, leaves dirty dishes besides the empty sink, leaves his dresser drawer open, eats with his mouth open. he wears swimshorts even though he's not going swimming. and these swim shorts will be gone next year! i've already tried to get rid of them once! i know i do things that probably get on his nerves. and it's okay! right, brandon?! okay. i love him in spite of his imperfections and flaws.. and he loves me no matter what. i could not live without him. i am so thankful for him. i love him.

i love that when we go to the mall to go "walking", i somehow end up with a purchase for me or fox. i love when late at night when we should be getting ready for bed, we get in the car, drive to sonic for shakes & go driving around town. we actually do that during the day. this drives me crazy, but i love it, too. when i'm playing with the back of his hair & he leans forward and says "i have something in the back of my head, will you take a look at it?" i tell him i'm going to stop playing with his hair if he says that again. and it drives me crazy.. but i secretly love it. i love that we can't stay mad at each other more than like 10 minutes. i love that he uses his vacation time to go with me to see family; even though, i know he would rather be in new york city or exploring a new city. i love that he listens to me. i love that he's adventurous.. because i am not. and he brings me out of my shell. i love that he loves fox. i love his beard. i love his goatie. i love his smell, except when he's been sweating. i love when he's designing graphics or mailers or has projects that he asks for my opinion & sometimes uses my suggestions. i love that he can't dance. i love his laugh. i love that he's one of those annoying, always driving the younger sister crazy type of guy. he's so funny with his sister. i love that he loves his momma. and i love that he still misses our saint bernard, dharma. but it drives me crazy that he talks about her just about every single day. and i vow that one day when we are able to, i'll get him another saint bernard. i love that he's supportive.. and goes along with my crazy ideas & quest for finding hobbies. i love him.

i think if i didn't have long to live, what would i tell brandon? (i don't plan on dying any time soon). i know there are a lot of things i would want to say and want him to know, but most of all i would tell him that i am so proud of him. i am proud of the man he is, the godly example he's set for our son and our family. he has excelled at it all. i am proud of his many talents, his hard work, and many achievements. i would tell him that he's made life worth living and it's been an amazing life and a fun ride. i would tell him thank you. for loving me. for loving our family. for working hard to provide for us all. for loving God. for being selfless. for forgiving. for forgetting. i would tell him that i love him with every beat of my heart. with all of my total being. with all that is within me. i honestly can not put into words how i love him. i would tell him he's always been my best friend and my true love.

i love you, brandon.