duty calls..

well, i've had a pretty good week. nothing spectacular.

i had a special mother's day.. well, as special as it could have been. i woke up sunday morning to my hubby & son coming into the bedroom. fox handed me his card he got for me. it was really cute & daddy/fox wrote.. "thanks mom for luv + milk". heehee! my hubby is crazy. but it made my day. and my hubby got me a sweet card & gift certificate to get an hour massage & an hour facial. i am definitely looking forward to using it.

well, brandon left for church & i nursed fox. even at 9 months & with fox having 6 teeth.. i still love nursing. and i go back & forth on whether i want to wean him at 12 months. it's just one of the most intimate moments i have with my son. and i really do love it. but i know i can have very special & intimate moments with my baby whether i nurse him or not. i guess we will see what happens.

anyways, let me get back on track. i was getting ready & placed fox in his exersaucer to let him enjoy his morning cartoons.. and this is where he normally does his morning poo poo... so if it comes out the back or anything, he doesn't stain or mess up his church clothes. he was quite fussy & so i thought "okay, maybe he wants to just play on the floor". as most mothers know that once their child becomes more mobile, they do not want to stay in the exersaucer or jumperoo; they want to get their hands on anything & everything & explore their home they've been looking at for months. i think babies spend their im-mobile (is that a word? can't remember) days looking around & scheming & planning what they are going to do & get their hands on once they can. so i placed him on the floor & went back to the spare bathroom in the hallway. and he was fine for about 5 minutes & started fussing a little. i went to check on him because now that he's pulling up on everything, he sometimes doesn't know how to get back down. so when i checked on him, he was just laying on the floor. i picked him up & set him in his crib so i could find his thermometer. when i came back in, he was laying down again. i placed him on his changing table & checked his temperature. 99.7.

hmmm.. i texted brandon & told him i didn't think i needed to go to church. one with fox's low grade fever & two with him being fussy & clingy. i like to think i am one of those mothers that will not take my child out anywhere to infect another child or person. and i get so irritated & frustrated when i take my child somewhere & someone brings their sick child in public. don't get me wrong. fox has had allergies & a snotty nose & mild cough due to the congestion. but i have taken him to the doctor every time to just be sure that he is not contagious. and i am constantly wiping that nose. and this constant yo-yo in the weather does not help him at all. but it frustrates me to no end when i think mothers are careless & inconsiderate. i better move off subject because i am getting worked up. heehee!

so i gave fox some tylenol.. placed him in bed with me & we slept for another 3 hours. his temperature kept rising to 102.4. i have to say i was a little sad to not be able to go to church. it was going to be my first real mother's day. and i had this cute dress (with the tag still on it) lined out that my sister in law gave me when i went in to visit a couple of weekends ago. i just love her. she always hands things off to me. but i love her for many more reasons. and fox had a cute little outfit that would match me. and we were going to take pictures. i think i was bummed that i wouldn't have any cute pictures of my first mother's day. but you know what? we should celebrate mothers everyday! right? but i realized it's not even about that.. AT ALL. it's about being a mother. and duty called on that day. and i took care of my baby.

my hubby & i have been working on eating better & healthier. sundays are usually our cheat day & our day to eat lunch with friends.. so he picked up some yummy food for lunch & we had ourselves a little feast. my husband it just so great! and he really did make my day special. i love him so much.

of course, i didn't go to work the next day & got him in to see the doctor. he had a cold. no ear infection, thank God. and the doctor just suggested we let his fever run the course. and i stayed home with him for 3 days. it finally broke on tuesday night, but i have to wait 24 hours before i can put him back in school.

while he was sick, we worked on teaching him how to sleep through the night. so i've basically night weaned him. at his last check up, the doctor said we could wean him from the night feeding & i think a lot of it has to do with me not being ready. but i get up at 5:30 am to get ready for work, get fox ready, load our car, leave the house by 7:15 am, drive 30 mins, drop fox off at school & "try" to be at work by 8 am. and it makes for one tired momma. i am not complaining of getting up at night with fox, because i take full advantage of loving on him. but i believe he's older & can handle it. and he needs more sleep. and so do i. heehee!

so he's been sleeping through the night for the past week, with the exception of one night. i only go back in his room if he is just in hysterics. but even then, i let him cry a little. but he's only done that once. and he will fuss for about 2-5 mins & fall asleep. last night, he slept for 9.5 hours! yay! it makes for one happy momma! ;-)

i spent my first off day taking care of my baby & cuddling him & babying him & loving on him & letting him rest. i spent the second day doing the same, but cleaning out closets & dressers. brandon & i don't plan on renewing our lease at the end of july & move to the town we both work in. it's only logical. so i am going to have a garage sale in june. there are so many things i've been holding onto.. i don't consider myself a hoarder. maybe a pack rat? but i've been holding on to things that remind me of my mom. but things that have just been sitting in the garage. i actually just spoke to my brother about it. we have this couch that i brought with me when i got married & it's been in 4 moves in 3 years. it was my mom's couch that she made a slipcover for. and it's been in the garage or storage. my dad was generous when he came to visit one year & bought us leather/suede loveseat & sofa & coffee table. so i really have no need for my mom's loveseat. so my brother said to get rid of it... that i do not need physical objects to help me remember my mom. so i think i will.

i made a lot of progress with cleaning out the bedrooms. and i plan on tackling the garage in the next few weeks. so say a prayer. and i think i'm going to use my spa day after we move because i'm sure i will be sore & need it then. wednesday, i just took it easy.. heehee! and thursday & friday was back to work & school for us. i am so thankful my baby is feeling better. i just hate when he is feeling a little bad. but i really enjoyed loving on him because it seems all he is interested in now is being on the floor & into everything.

well.. it seems like duty calls again & i must go feed my son dinner. and grab something for myself. ;-)