dreams really do come true

at least some of mine do.

i am not talking about dreams as in hopes, dreams, & aspirations... well, i guess that, too.

i've always dreamt i'd marry an amazing guy. check. mark that off my list. i've always dreamt of having a baby. check. another one down! and i have a few more of those on my lists. slowly but surely i will mark them off my list!!

but i'm talking about actual dreams. it could be a gift.. or a curse. i don't really know what to call them. i just take them however they come. it's not like i really have much choice in them, i guess.

i have been having some really weird dreams lately. dreams that have really come true in a sense. and they are the ones that really stick with me & i remember to tell the next day. i'm not trying to sound cooky, but it's the truth.

i had been meaning to write about this before (one of the many things i have wanted to write about). but last night, i had a dream about my youngest brother. and it wasn't a good dream. but i woke up & just prayed for him. he's currently stationed in north carolina & is in the marines. i prayed for God's hand of protection over his life. and right now, he's in training & doesn't have communication access for a month. oh joy!

my mom passed away almost four years ago, and she, too, had this "gift" of dreams coming true. i remember specific dreams she had about this lady at church & when she confronted this lady about them, she confirmed things that occured in my mom's dreams. when my mom would dream about certain people, she would wake up & pray for them & their families. she would tell me that if i ever had dreams about people to wake up & pray for them. and that's what i do.

for instance, when i was pregnant, i wanted to have a girl & was really hoping for one. the night before the ultrasound, i had a dream that i went to the hospital & they gave me a sonogram (photo) & said "it's a boy!" and i kept telling them it wasn't my baby.. that i couldn't see it (the male part) & just kept saying that over & over. well, i woke up the next morning & just knew that it was a boy & told brandon about my dream. so at the hospital while in the ultrasound room, the tech was checking all of the baby's vital organs & she just started to move the device around my tummy (i guess to spread the gel out) & she passed by the baby's legs quickly & in a split second i saw his "third leg". ha! i looked over at brandon & said "it's a boy. i saw 'it'". my ultrasound confirmed my dream. and what's funny is that in my dream i kept saying that i couldn't see "it", but during the actual ultrasound, i saw "it".

another one, a few weeks before i delivered fox, i had a dream that really disturbed me. i had a dream that something terrible happened to my baby boy. i had a dream that my baby died of an aneurysm. i honestly don't know what that is.. but i didn't see my baby die, i just knew that he did & that word stuck out. i woke up terrified. and of course, i prayed & prayed against it. it just scared me. i know that sometimes during pregnancy, women have scary dreams. and i don't know if i necessarily blame this on my hormones. a couple of weeks after my dream, i had an ultrasound & they found some dilation on fox's lateral ventricles... something about the cerebral spinal fluid was not being completely released. yada, yada, yada! not what i wanted to hear. we just lifted my baby up in prayer & just waited until he was born to confirm that he was okay. and praise God, we got a good report! i feel that dream i had prepared me to not go crazy over worry & to just put all of my trust in God.

another instance, i had four dreams about one of my brothers... just within a few days. and every time, i would wake up & pray. because i am several hours away, i don't really know what's going on in my brother's lives. we talk every other week or so. or keep up through facebook. so out of those four dreams, i only really remembered 3 of the dreams. one dream that he was in was really a dream about me, my mom & fox. i told brandon about all my dreams.. and a few days later, i talked to my sister in law & asked her about my brother. and she started giving me the "juice".. of all this stuff that was going on in his life. and would you not believe that she hit every main point of the main points in every one of my dreams. CRAZY!! and after everything was said, i recanted to her all of my dreams.

i think it's a little freaky.. and scary.. and a little exciting. i know i had been dealing with some personal issues for months. mainly fears. and i would pray to God to please take away some things in my life because they were keeping me from really enjoying my life or to show me something.. as to why i was going through those things. i was looking for understanding, knowledge, etc. and i had been suffering i guess from a little anxiety from these stupid fears. and one night i had this dream that really shook me to my core. wow. i still get chills thinking about this dream. but after much thought & replaying the dream over & over again in my head.. i finally understood why i was having these fears & i truly believe God showed me the cause of my fears. i sought some counsel from my pastor's wife from my hometown.. i feel she understands me & i guess knew where these fears come from. and over the past few months, i have been working on those issues. but i have finally gotten over the anxiety. praise God!

and i have had many, many more dreams.. even others that have come true. and i don't know what this all means.. but i thank God for them. and i will just continue to lift these people up in prayer. that is all i can really do. i'm thinking of keeping a journal of all my dreams. i especially want to do it because it's not very often that i dream of my Mom. and i love to dream about her. sometimes the dreams are really sad. such as, her being sick with cancer or me trying to get her to go somewhere with me, but she won't & i guess she can't go anywhere with me because she's gone. or just things like that. dreams about her are bittersweet. but i'm thankful for just a little glimpse of her, you know?

i think i will go buy me a little journal... so then i won't seem like a freak. ha!

i wish my dream of me winning the lottery would actually come to pass! ha! guess i should start playing the lottery!! j/k