i am such a slacker.

i always am thinking of things i want to write about.. and i have quite a few things i want to talk about. my only issue is... just doing it. ha!

my life has changed a little (or a lot) in the last month. i got a job. my child is going to a daycare at a church. it has been a blessing & a curse, i guess. i am blessed with working for a great company, great pay, great benefits, great people. i'm blessed. no doubt about it. the curse.. my child got sick for the first time. it's such a bummer seeing him sick & helpless. it started with a runny nose to a mild ear infection and now a cough.

it's been somewhat hard transitioning from being a housewife to going back to work... but women do this all the time. surely, if i can give birth without an epidural, i can conquer & overcome this! honestly, my biggest issue is time management. i want to spend as much time as possible with my son. when i come home, i don't want to cook or clean, i want to take a nap with fox or play with him. i want to love on him extra. and let him know i didn't desert him! some things i am doing to assure i spend more time with him during the week (when i'm away from him the most).. is to bag his lunches in little baggies for the following week (do this on the weekends), pump his milk for the following day (i'm still nursing & want to keep it up so i pump at work), set out our clothes the night before, & get our bags ready for the next day. by doing some of this, it actually eliminates some time not spent with him.

i'm bummed i'm not getting as much sleep as i used to. and now, i live for saturdays.. when i can sleep in. ha! i've been feeling bad that i have kept him up as long as i can at night just because i want to spend more time with him, but honestly, we all need more sleep. so we will start going to bed a little earlier from now on. i just hate thinking that i used to be with him 24/7 and now it's only like 5 hours/day awake with him. so i really don't mind it so much getting up with him in the middle of the night still because it's more time spent with him.. but it makes for long days at work.

me going to work and he going to daycare has thrown him off a little, as well. and being sick has not helped him. God bless my little boy! we've been having problems with him not eating or drinking while we're away from each other. i've googled ways to better help us in this transition, but can we really undo what has been done for the past 8 months?! he's gotten so used to me or brandon feeding him. he took a bottle for the first 5 weeks while i was supplementing with formula.. and since then, i have soley been breastfeeding him. so he doesn't understand the bottle and sometimes will refuse it. of course, i've introduced the sippy cup, but it's more of a toy for him. some days he gets it & drinks.. some days he doesn't. also, he doesn't eat his baby food or naps as much. my poor little bam! we used to be on somewhat of a schedule when we were home together. and now, he's having to adjust to a new schedule & it's been a little hard on him. it's been a little discouraging for me. i've gone to his school a couple of times to help feed him his lunch. my thought process in this is that he will see that it's okay to eat there. i'm not going today in hopes that he will eat on his own. so we'll see. :-/

i know this has all been a little major for both of us. i miss being with my boy every day, all day. and i know it will get better for the both of us. we pray every night that the next day we will progress in this... every day will be better than the day before. and we thank God that he's blessed us abundantly.

if you read this, please be in prayer with us that we'll manage our time wisely. and this transition will get easier for the both of us!

i looove my boy so very much. he's the sweetest, happiest little cuddler! i'm a proud momma. God is good!