Song that makes me cry :-(

i absolutely love this song, held, by natalie grant.  this song has been out for years.  it's absolutely beautiful & makes me cry every single time.  


i feel like my life is so unfair sometimes because i have to live the rest of my life without my mom by my side.. and i know that God does not owe anything to me.. so i love this song because with everything i have gone through & have yet to go through, God is there with me every step of the way.  and he is holding me in his loving arms.

Two months is too little
They let him go
They had no sudden healing
To think that providence
Would take a child from his mother
While she prays, is appalling
Who told us we'd be rescued
What has changed and
Why should we be saved from nightmares
Were asking why this happens to us
Who have died to live, it's unfair
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We'd be held
This hand is bitterness
We want to taste it and
Let the hatred numb our sorrows
The wise hand opens slowly
To lilies of the valley and tomorrow
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We'd be held
If hope if born of suffering
If this is only the beginning
Can we not wait, for one hour
Watching for our savior
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We'd be held

i also love this song, letters from war, by mark schultz.  it's an older song, as well.  i believe my brother, lester, was in the navy when i heard this.. and it just hit home with him.  and now, it hits home with aaron being in afghanistan.  it's just a beautiful song.

She walked to the mailbox
On that bright summers day
Found a letter from her son
In a war far away
He spoke of the weather
And good friends that he'd made
Said I'd been thinking 'bout dad
And the life that he had
Thats why I'm here today
And that the end he said
You are what I'm fighting for
It was the first of the letters from war
She started writing
You're good and you're brave
What a father that you'll be someday
make it home
make it safe
She wrote every night as she prayed
Late in December
A day she'll not forget
Oh her tears stained the paper
With every word that she read
It said "I was up on a hill
I was out there alone
When the shots all rang out
And bombs were exploding
And thats when I saw him
He came back for me
And though he was captured
A man set me free
And that man was your son
He asked me to write to you
I told him i would, oh I swore"
It was the last of the letters from war
And she prayed he was living
Kept on believing
And wrote every night just to say
You are good
And you're brave
what a father that you'll be someday
Make it home
Make it safe
Still she kept writing each day
Then two years later
Autumn leaves all around
A car pulled in the driveway
And she fell to the ground
And out stepped a captain
Where her boy used to stand
He said "mom I'm following orders
From all of your letters
And I've come home again",
He ran into hold her
And dropped all his bags on the floor
Holding all of her letters from war
Bring him home
Bring him home
Bring him home

and as you read this, please continue to keep my baby brother, aaron, in your prayers.  the situation in afghanistan is not going really well.  i last heard from aaron almost 3 weeks ago & he said they were all going from home to home inspecting & whatnot.  and i know a few guys from his unit/division have died in the past few weeks.  please just pray for his safety & protection.  and most of all, that he just has an intimate relationship with God & learns to fully rely on him to get him through & bring him back home safe.

thank you!